Amorak Huey
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The Water in Your Glass Might Be Older Than the Sun
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The New York Times, April 15th, 2016
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I’m pitching a comic book series about clown school
only I can’t draw; I’m more the idea-generator. I’ve always
been good with the ideas. Can’t you picture the panels,
all those blossoming young clowns in various states of wig,
grease paint, huge shoes? They’d always wear the red rubber noses,
even outside of class, that’s part of the trope of the series,
that’s how we know they’re in clown school and not, say,
electrician school or meteorologist school
or the University of Phoenix. Think how much this school
would save on buses: use tiny cars instead, ba-dump-bump,
I could go on all day, but how have you been?
What’s keeping you up at night these days? Did you
hear about how all water on the planet might have started
as part of a massive frozen cloud, drifting through space
until it hit our atmosphere and made our planet its home.
We’re quenching our thirst with an interstellar gas
that’s older than the solar system; older than this light
that warms us. I feel like everyone should know this,
that it changes everything, but I’m probably wrong.
No, let’s go ahead and say it: I’m definitely wrong;
that reminds me, you know what’s really creepy,
or at least, I mean, it’s going to be once we finish,
is that damn clown school—can you imagine?
We’d need a trigger warning for the coulrophobic,
I’m not one to make light of anyone’s fear. I do have
a question for you: should my clowns
also save the world? At least rescue kittens from trees
and whatnot. People like superheroes, or everyday heroes,
and would it really sustain our interest
if the stories were about merely the foibles
of clown-student life: the drinking and pairing off,
the breaking up and hooking up and homework,
and the red rubber noses, don’t forget.
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The Letter X Imagines His Life as a One-Night Stand with an Aging Country & Western Singer
previously published in Lake Effect
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I remember it as Knoxville but might have been anywhere
we could hide in public, holding hands in bland hotel room,
braced for some great storm. We had nothing to feel bad about.
We ran out of cigarettes, we painted our heat on the walls:
tiny constellations in every fissure, loophole, technicality,
we could not costume over our mutilated potential.
I remember your invisible breath and breasts and tongue,
our strut and posture, the approach and invitation:
your fingers in my mouth, the switching off of the lights
and then back on: the closest we’ll come to salvation.
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The Wikipedia Page "Clowns Who Committed Suicide" Has Been Deleted
previously published in RE:AL: Regarding Arts & Letters
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There are community standards to uphold. Red rubber noses to thumb.
And so many questions about process. Do you remove
the humongous shoes before kicking away the chair? Wash away
white grease paint before placing muzzle to temple? What about wig,
polka-dot bow tie, oversized glasses? How many versions of yourself
fit into a tiny car before you connect hose to tailpipe? Oh, I should not
make light of my own pain except that’s all I know how to do. Blame
my cartoon tears, the awkward orange light in this tent,
the decade I grew up in: all those packs of Marlboros
I bought for my mother while she idled
in a station wagon jammed with sniffling siblings. Or the pot
my father grew along the back fence, the babysitters in hot pants,
The Joy of Sex on the bedside table. We would have
bet the future looked like Pong, all pixilation and promise
and just enough danger to be interesting:
we rode across country standing up in the front seat
between squabbling parents, we were missiles
ready to be launched at slightest tap of brake or hint
of international incident. We knew staying safe
meant huddling on hallway carpet with hands on head
and holy shit, you should have seen that carpet—
ten years of brown and green and orange shag,
plus all the wall-hangings, we are a generation
intimate with macramé. You probably think I’m telling stories
now, that this would be better off as prose,
but let me tell you something real, and pay attention
because I don’t do this often: every line breaks
somewhere. It’s no wonder we grew up and gave
our children everything they asked for. It’s no wonder
we say there’s a pill for every ill and we don’t trust our institutions,
though we’re either lying or mistaken because we believe
everything we’ve ever read or heard or seen or swallowed:
kick center-pole from under tent one hundred times,
we still take it on faith when they say it won’t happen again.
It’s no wonder we made a career out of this costume party:
say the word and we’ll play the fool, provide the distraction
that enables someone else’s sleight of hand, we’ll carry
the ringmasters’ top-hats. It’s no surprise
our closing act falls short of significance.
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The Letter X Puts on a Clown Suit, Sits on a Park Bench Across from a Playground and, Contemplates Fatherhood
previously published in RHINO
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Who knew there’d be all these questions? It’s not the screaming
but the facial expressions that get you,
seven hundred ways to indicate disgust.
It’s not the shit in the diapers but the changing that’s difficult.
It’s the smell of 3-in-1 oil that dials up childhood—
a black rotary phone on the wall of a garage,
that ring a surprise every time
and hanging up doesn’t always disconnect your call.
It’s the violently smooth handle of a hammer
and so many different saw blades:
teeth for every need.
You cannot make a thing without putting yourself at risk.
It’s not the sweat or tears or even the blood,
it’s how authentically you spit motherfucker
when your thumbnail rips off.
Build a treehouse to prove what?
That you know how to cut out a trapdoor
or where the rope belongs?
There’s no such thing as a gift
but at least slides are no longer made of jag and rust.
Some things can be taught, or at least learned:
why a triangle’s the strongest shape,
when to cut against the grain,
how to pluck chalked string against new wood
without leaving a double red line,
misleading and expensive. That’s the thing.
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Sneha Subramanian Kanta is a GREAT scholarship awardee, and has earned a second postgraduate degree in literature from England. Her chapbook titled Home is Hyperbole won the Boston Uncommon Chapbook Series (Boston Accent Lit). She is the founding editor of Parentheses Journal. An old soul, she runs a patisserie.
Sneha Subramanian Kanta is a GREAT scholarship awardee, and has earned a second postgraduate degree in literature from England. Her chapbook titled Home is Hyperbole won the Boston Uncommon Chapbook Series (Boston Accent Lit). She is the founding editor of Parentheses Journal. An old soul, she runs a patisserie.
Sneha Subramanian Kanta is a GREAT scholarship awardee, and has earned a second postgraduate degree in literature from England. Her chapbook titled Home is Hyperbole won the Boston Uncommon Chapbook Series (Boston Accent Lit). She is the founding editor of Parentheses Journal. An old soul, she runs a patisserie.
Amorak Huey's second full-length collection of poetry, Seducing the Asparagus Queen, won the 2018 Vern Rutsala Book Prize and will be released this month by Cloudbank Books. He also is author of Ha Ha Ha Thump (Sundress, 2015) and the forthcoming Boom Box (Sundress, 2019), as well as two chapbooks. A 2017 National Endowment for the Arts fellow, he is co-author with W. Todd Kaneko of Poetry: A Writer’s Guide and Anthology (Bloomsbury, 2018) and teaches writing at Grand Valley State University in Michigan.